Who even gives a fuck anymore?

New Start.

I  am doing myself for once. Working out, Eating better, eating less, juicing. I am really making an effort. I wish that it didn’t go unnoticed, but oh well. I am going to focus on how I will feel better inside and look better on the outside. 

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seriously considering filling my pockets with glitter and whenever someone near me says something really stupid or rude i’ll just reach into my pocket with a dead expression and release the glitter into the sky above their head and watch it shower over them like a baptism of stupid

I miss you.

How do you just forget the person who used to be your best friend and lover? How do you get past the constant reminder of him doing you wrong? How do you live without someone who was always there for you? 

How do you go on to find someone else with your heart still belonging to a person that can lie straight to your face and feel no remorse? I feel nothing put constant pain because I can’t even be mad at you. I am not even upset that you cheated on me. I am only hurt by the fact that you can lie to my face. How could someone hold you in bed and say I love you with no guilt? 

All I want to do is lay next to you and forget what has happened. I want to be able to move forward with you, but that won’t ever happen. I want to just be able to look you in the eyes and know that you are truly sorry, but that won’t ever happen either. I wish you knew how bad you hurt me. I just wish you knew how hard you’ve made it for me to even breathe. 

All I want is to be happy, but for now, I don’t see that being possible with this weight on my heart. I can’t do anything but cry over you, when I know you are just with the woman you cheated on me with. Will you ever miss me like I miss you? Or were all the things you told me just lies..?